To: jbe who wrote (34257 ) 8/7/1999 10:46:00 AM From: Rambi Read Replies (2) | Respond to of 71178
Hi Joan, Have to agree with you about next door. But I've made tea and am about to sit down for a bit on the front porch. The rockers are old but comfortable and our view of the mountains is lovely. Lemon or milk? I received a PM this week from an old Feelies lurker who asked, somewhat plaintively, if I thought we were good people at heart who just have to prove that ours were bigger and prettier. It does seem that way, and that was when I realized I was beginning to lose my faith a bit that we ARE good people, something I have believed for a very long time. And which is why I'm here sitting on the DAR porch contemplating the sunrise and that need in us: for a last word, for a capitulation, for an error in the other's argument or his grammar or his word usage. Small, unimportant, and most of the time meaningless. But observing a lot of what goes on in the minicosmos of SI, an almost irresistible compulsion for everyone. It doesn't make us look very attractive. Of course you see the same compulsion every day in the real world. But then there are the inspired writings and the kindnesses, the sweet PMs that sometimes arrive just when you really need them, the really funny stories, the evident love of families and friends. We have a certain history here now which has taken on its own reality in our lives, and memories that are surprisingly just as strong as memories from our 3D past, as evidenced this past week while we worried over the NEW SI, and revisited old haunts. The neatest thing about this porch is that we can sit here and watch both the sunrise and the sunset from the same place every day, and they are always gorgeous. I can clean up the house, myself, and my act with the blink of an eye. That teapot will never run out of tea. SO it's up to me not to ruin all these magical things with the negative part of myself- here at least on DAR we can try to keep things pleasant, kind, receptive, nurturing for each other. If that's not reality, it should be- at least somewhere in your life.