To: Rambi who wrote (40706 ) 11/1/1999 1:08:00 AM From: Ilaine Respond to of 71178
Madame Cobalt thinks that the timing of the dream is most suggestive. Recall that you recently received your first rejection letter from your first agent, a very traumatic event in your life. Recall also that this trauma followed shortly on the heels of another very traumatic event in your life, taking your first son away to college. You gave up much to be a stay-at-home mom for your children, and now they are growing up, and you wonder whether you can resume the creative life you gave up when you gave up acting. The people here on DAR believe you have a future as a writer, they encourage you to write, and send things out, which is what you want to do, anyway, but you have to feel doubt upon being rejected, it's only human. You cut along the lifeline, not through it, so in your dreams you tried to extend it, not shorten it. That's the most important thing, all the rest is window dressing. The initial impulse was the truest one, to extend your life, to achieve your goals. The next image, that of the "chicken breast ready to be stuffed or something" is a personal one, it's bizarre to me because I've never stuffed a chicken breast, but I think of it as a creative act, a "giving" act, one would not stuff a chicken breast for oneself, I think, it's the type of thing one would do for guests. I think it means that you are writing for others, not for yourself. Your soul lies naked, and you feel you must do something to it to disguise it, and make it more fancy to please and impress others. Having it sewn up at college is very revealing, you need to work on that. Something you did at college was wrong, it stifled your creative impulses. You went the wrong way. I don' t know enough to know how. The little shiny things being pulled out is also revealing, someone else pulled out your shiny things, they were your shiny things, why did you let him pull them out? Were they good things or bad things? Are you better off with them out? Or would you be better off with them in? And would you have been better off if it were you who took out the shiny things? You have to answer these questions, I think. The part about the man making your hand into a mouth so that others laugh is also very revealing. It's your hand, your life, your mouth, but someone else is using it, again, you are letting others use you for their pleasure and entertainment, but it's not for you, except for whatever satisfaction you get from pleasing others. I have more ideas, but they may be too personal.