To: Jim Willie CB who wrote (14798 ) 4/18/2000 5:22:00 PM From: elpolvo Read Replies (14) | Respond to of 35685
A LETTER FROM LEAVENWORTH hi friends. "our" son is growing nicely. thank you all for being a part of his life and his growth. i love you guys! love, polvie here's a letter i received from him yesterday:April 7, 2000 dear dad, what a wonderful letter you sent me. you inspire me! how are you? i'm wonderful. just want to touch on a few things that i'm working on. one - mise en place (pr. meez on plahs) french for "to put in place" refers to the assembly and preparation of all the necessary ingredients and equipment. cooking? life? doesn't say. hmmm. i'm working on my "mental" mise en place. yes i love it. contrary to what you wrote in your letter: "CIA or no CIA, doesn't matter, what matters is your ability to cook food." I don't want to be merely a cook. i'm going to be a CHEF! "cookery is an art, a noble science; chefs are gentlemen." -- robert burton, british author, 1621. a chef is a professional, a manager, an executive, A GENTLEMAN! all the things i learn about being a chef, i will apply to my entire life. one day you can say with pride, "my son is a chef," and people will know that your son is a gentleman. listen dad, i'm going to the CIA. i'm leaving myself no alternative. i won't accept anything else. unless of course i decide not to, later on. maybe something else will come along (better) while i'm working towards that goal. some of the finest chefs in the world are instructors at the CIA. they all have different techniques but teach the basics on classical cuisine. i would spend many years learning in the industry all of the different things i can learn in a few short years there. i want my bachelor's degree in culinary arts management. i want to graduate with "high honors". i remember very clearly when i was in the fifth grade and was chosen student of the year. that made me so proud. since then i have failed at every single thing i've tried. didn't graduate high school. well, anyway... it's not just the education i'm after but also the fun of the experience. i love (y)our friends. they are certainly some wonderful people. di (what a lovely lady) ordered some books and my god, they are perfect choices. how would she know exactly what to send? right on the money. i didn't receive one of the books she ordered though. i think it is entitled "professional cooking" for i did get the "study guide to accompany professional cooking" she wrote in her letter that she sent 3 cookbooks and i only got two. i wrote her back and thanked her and told her what books i got. who knows?you mentioned that my time here may be the best thing that ever happened to me. well, let me tell you a little story. when i was living at my mother's house last time, i was miserable. i hated myself. wanted to die. she used to literally lock me in the house when she went to work. i would sit there all day and think, "what kind of person am i if my own mother locks me in the house because she thinks i might rob her?" one day i realized that what i was lacking in my life was discipline. i had no idea that i was in control of all that happens in my life. i started asking myself where i could be disciplined. i wanted to join the military but knew i wouldn't be accepted because i already had a criminal record. that's when i decided to come to prison. i consciously chose to be here. i almost died trying to get here. i overdosed trying to medicate myself with heroin the day after i robbed that bank because i felt horrible about what i did. well when i got here all didn't go according to my plan. instead of disciplining myself i fell right into the mix of the "penitentiary lifestyle". i was gambling, using drugs and all that stuff i was trying so hard to get away from. you and your friends saved me dad. had it not been for you guys reaching out to me and showing me that i was a creator of all things in my life (good & bad) i would still be stuck. i've learned so much the last two months just by reading the books and letters that people send. i am constantly reading and learning more. i have a long way to go (the rest of my life) but it's not the destination but the process that is motivating me. i missed out on so much education but learned things here that i never would have anywhere else. what a trip it has been, WoW. there are things i will no longer accept in my life right now. drugs. crime. hate, and those things obviously. i also won't accept being fat and out of shape anymore. i know in my heart, mind and spirit that i can achieve whatever my mind, heart and spirit can conceive and i need to read, read, read to get more ideas! i don't mean only books, i mean read as in comprehend life to the fullest. and i certainly want you by my side teaching and learning with me. feel free to share any and all of this or other letters i write to you with our friends because i trust your judgement 100% and i have nothing to hide. i am not ashamed of anything! about getting you in shape, i suggest you start right now with some type of aerobic exercise. my workouts are VERY INTENSE. i'm talking forty-five minutes of strenuous cardiovascular exercise followed by at least three miles of jogging five days a week. and just a light jog on sat. & sun. (5 miles). don't get discouraged, all it takes is conditioning your mind every single day and soon you become a person who works out every day. you simply won't accept anything else. persistence! in fine form, i remain your loving son, kidd e. bean miss you! p.s. sorry for not calling but i don't want to cost you the money. it's so expensive! besides, i need to work on my writing skills. be expecting more letters to come, including tips on "cooking up a wonderful kiddy bean." :-)