To: d:oug who wrote (83442 ) 3/19/2002 1:20:11 AM From: ubetcha Read Replies (1) | Respond to of 117095 Doug A K, (OT) You mayhaps did not say it well for others as is your usual style, but I for one understood your every word and feeling. I too took some demons with me, and some feelings about what I was about to do. When I returned, I decided that uppermost to anything else, I wanted to maintain my sanity. I had friends that had lost theirs. I returned to the job that I left, and continued as if I had never left. I destroyed all that reminded me of having been in a "War". The first thing that I did was to not let anyone know where or what I had been doing for that year. Since most of the people that I knew did not think well of that War, this task was not hard. I survived mentally by burying everything deep in my mind. I did have some traits that stayed with me. Loud noises would cause me to hit the ground. Somehow I always passed that off as having tripped or stumbled. I accomplished what I set out to do. I maintained my sanity, and ended up leading a productive life. I personally feel good about my accomplishments. I personally maintained this facade for over 30 years. About 2 years ago, I started looking back. I finally could. I can now say that I understand what, why, and how I accomplished what I went through that year. One thing that has come out of this "outing" is that I do not care for anyone to put the soldiers or that war down in that way that occurred over 30 years ago. "Are we going to have another Vietnam?" has become the mantra for the current war against terrorism. They have nothing to do with each other. I noticed that you took off or never had your private message up. I would certainly like to talk with you, but only if you want to. If you wish, you may PM me, and I will return the message. Thanks, and welcome home belatedly Terry