To: Harmattan who wrote (245 ) 11/25/1997 9:49:00 PM From: Jane Hafker Read Replies (1) | Respond to of 650
You have put me in a strange position here, G-hunk, my dear G-Hunk, and as you know, public emoting is not my style, more a private matter indeed, but there is no place else to speak to you. I told you I would let the Lord sort out the matter and go back to sleep. I did, and it seems that I should apologize to you with great sincerity, and a desire for forgiveness. I did to you what I hate the most--mistaking your words and translating them in my mind as something I think I hear rather than what you are actually saying. You say I cause you wonder, well, you cause me wonder, and probably I just don't understand half of what you say. Therefore, I can't hear it, can I? I can't hear or understand when you speak of abstract ideas which I can't identify as having any basis in my reality. But they must have a basis of reality, and must mean something, or you wouldn't say them. Whatever the matter, they are your thoughts, and somehow here these thoughts have meaning and people enjoy them. It is not my business to interpret or comment on them, and in deciding that you were resolved to be forever in "hoop" mode was a biting attempt at humor that wounded you. That is what bothers me, that I could in anyway cause you anything near pain, whoever esoteric that pain might be, or however slight. That is all I have to say, and this was your place, I just came to visit because I was asked to by a voice in the air. Now you desert Meunch also, who loves to speak of the same things you do, to punish me.... and that is hardly fair. Carol has a way of saying things that always sounds very quiet. I can be very quiet, and may be smiling and bemused, and it does sound like a fish-wife. And that I am not. Trust me. I refer you to your own post: How dare you run away... et cetera, et cetera.... and et cetera. ( It truly was a great post.) Ah, the loss of that next level is a killer.