To: epicure who wrote (28761 ) 1/22/1999 12:02:00 PM From: nihil Read Replies (2) | Respond to of 108807
I agree that one must have the right to do away with oneself if necessary. But one has the right. A good ninja could bite into his tongue and exsanguinate himself, swallowing his own blood so no one could interfere with his intention. A useful skill I learned in guerrilla school. But before we think of this, each person must have unlimited access to effective painkillers. I have lain in hospital in extreme, soul-killing pain, and been refused morphine. Once I threatened a lady doctor with harm, and she, terrified, gave me a shot. Once a courageous Korean nurse accelerated my dose and risked her cap for me. Without the morphine I would have killed myself. I knew how (I did not become addicted). I have had been trained to resist pain. I can tolerate pain so great that once I would have killed myself. Its an old discipline well worth learning if one loves another. The secret is simple, one has to have a love that is greater than one's own life. One lives and endures the pain for love of another greater than one's fear of pain. It also helps to have too little life insurance. To think that a loved one would be better off if one was dead is fatal. To know how to kill oneself without permission gives wondrous freedom. One can always endure instant pain because if it grows unendurable, one can easily end it. To love someone more than one fears pain raises the fatal threshhold. It is loving to live for others. Knowledge that one need not endure illimitable pain, allows one to concentrate on his love of his own life which serves one's lover. Without love why would any ever choose to live?