To: Daniel Schuh who wrote (31357 ) 2/1/1999 12:34:00 AM From: Johannes Pilch Read Replies (7) | Respond to of 67261
Daniel, Borzou, Michelle, Lorrie, Dipy, Addi and sadly too many others to list: I am being punished for the wrongs I have committed against you. While I have not detected displeasure in my essential beliefs and principles, I have discerned a severe disdain from my God concerning my harsh attitude and methods of corresponding with you. The truth has been coming upon me since I hurt my ankle a handful of days ago-- the accident forcing me to lie still and think (it was a relatively minor accident that occurred during a basketball game). I have been faced these past few days with the choice of publicly acknowledging my wrongs (since they occurred publicly), or leaving them be. The last few days I have stubbornly tried to do the latter; but I see my spirit will certainly disallow any further attempts here. So I am forced toward the former option. I am perfectly sincere when I tell you I am terribly sorry for the harsh things I have said to you. Indeed I apologize to everyone, whatever your political affiliations and whether or not I have ever addressed you. It is a dreadful thing I cannot erase from your minds all the harsh things I have said, not so much because they have wounded my reputation amongst you (though, of course, that is also a pity), but because they no doubt have at some level hurt you. I cannot erase them naturally, but if you will allow me I would like to try erasing them in some spiritual sense. I denounce the harsh things I have said to you, and before all of you acknowledge that it was I who was filthy. The harsh words I have submitted here I ask that you consider them never written, or that you assign them to some wicked person who no longer exists. In brief, I ask that you release me from them, in your minds and hearts disassociating them with me. Forgive. Well of course my apologies will mean nothing should I continue here in the same way. Therefore in my future correspondences here I will attempt never to assault anyone directly or otherwise. I will work diligently not to insult any person or group of persons. When I refer to groups I will try to do it merely for the purpose of referring to them, and not to assault. I say this not in the least expecting you to reciprocate, of course you are free to discourse as your consciences allow. I say it because I must for my own sake. You must understand; however, I have not changed at all my positions regarding homosexuality, abortion, liberal economic policies, etc., etc. I reject the supportive positions on these issues just as vigorously as ever. I believe many of your positions just as harmful as I have always believed them to be. And I certainly think your positions concerning the President perfectly in error. Nevertheless I will simply endeavor to tell you by reason why I think your positions erroneous, this, without adulterating the thrust with foolishness. Well. Confession and Repentance are indeed good for the soul. I now feel the burden of divine scorn being lifted from me. Your friend, Johannes